It rained today after months of drought. At first it was only a few raindrops, but enough for my sister to call out to me to come outside and breathe in that petrichor. We squeaked with delight. Even getting a notification on my phone that it might rain later was enough to bring me joy.
I stayed in my room to read and enjoy the first rainy day in a while. The smile grew on my face as I heard more rain outside my window, until I remembered my clothes were still outside on a rack drying. Then it wasn’t funny anymore.
By afternoon, my train of thought took a different turn. I must have been spending too much time staring out the window for those dark clouds to form. That damn window…
I don’t put dates in my journal. Everything is one big script in black ink, page after page of neural pathways that run into a dead end and reroute to find another. Days and months spilled into one, so my journal reflects that. That’s why you couldn’t tell how much time had passed between one line on the paper and the next.
There was a lot of silence there, a pen that was staining the paper in one spot where it was stuck. That ink spill was the quiet of a time wasted.
I’m how the wind blows. A little there, and then nowhere. Very early, I let others’ ideas guide me until I lost my way. All these pointers were meant to be a passing compliment. Maybe an encouragement. And I drew the map according to them.
To noone’s fault, either. It was my own doing. I couldn’t recognize passing interests from life aims. I took that first step and thought I ascended the staircase.
So, what I need right now isn’t an escape into yet another fantasy. What I need is to sharpen the edges of my reality, so I never confuse where I’m going and never lose sight of where I’m actually headed.
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So sorry, but I laughed when you forgot your clothes outside.😁
Another day to hang and dry again, but yeah, rain is so good.
We had it here today, too and I nap soundly coz it feels cooler
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When I tell you I ran out so quickly I almost got wings 😂 It’s already sunny again, so a great day to air dry the laundry, but not so much for getting cozy 😅
Napping while it’s raining is the best thing ever!!
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Yeah…the best thing ever. I feel refreshed.🤩 Ready your wings again in case you’ll be forgetful 😁
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I’m glad to hear! ✨ Stretching right now, because it’s only a matter of time… 😂😂
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Matter of time of shapeshifting😅😁
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Exactly! 😂😂😂
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A lovely reflection on how wisdom often arrives quietly, one experience at a time. I enjoyed the warmth and perspective in this piece. Perhaps we do become a little wiser by the hour, provided we remain curious enough to keep learning.
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Thank you for these lovely words! Experience will make us wiser, and life will create an opportunity, but curiosity is how we get there!
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The part about forgetting the clothes outside had me laughing! 😂😂 After waiting for the rain for so long, the rain finally came with its own little surprise. 🌧️😄
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Caught me off guard, that’s for sure! 😅😅
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Sorry about the clothes but YAY for some rain! (we are still waiting for it and the air feels heavy).
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It lasted for some ten minutes – enough to make a mess, but that’s it, so, we’re in the same boat here 😅😅
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