I started looking at myself surgically, trying to pry everything out. I wasn’t me to myself anymore. I was another person I was dissecting, so separated from my feelings that I started feeling like a machine – a broken one, at that.
Tag Archives: life
homecoming trip
The longest trip I’ve taken was coming back from Vilnius. I was at the airport at 2 am. I had an early flight. I landed in Krakow and had a connecting flight to Zagreb. I got there around 2 pm and was in my city at around 9 pm.
my sister and i
Time goes by, and in the smoky snake we see the trajectory of our desired lives, a vision we are yet to unlock. The vision dissolves in a minute in our minds, replaced by muffled curses from those who won’t let us outgrow them.
you know your past, come meet the future
You’re always much closer to your ten-year-old self than you’ll ever be to your next-year self.
the art of mending a heart
My teen years were my most fruitful years for writing. Too bad it was all wasted on a melancholy I cannot return to anymore.
advice from your big sister
I feel like my childhood started with losing my footing at my first steps, and ever since then I’ve been doing the panic sprint. I still haven’t found my footing.
apps on silent
Also, I hate that everything is buzzing all the time and has the right to your presence at all times. No, I want to hide behind the screen and exist quietly. Let me scroll my Pinterest in peace!
The Blue Castle
What would happen if, for example, you found out you’re dying, went on a spree of doing the things you always wanted to do, and then found out you’re not dying? Does it seem reckless and unsustainable now, in the aftermath? Do you keep it up?
friendship is kindness.
Not to say that 2024 was the last time anyone was kind to me, but it did give me two of the kindest people to have as my best friends.
picture this
My life would be so full of art and romance. Everything would be romantic, and the walks along the beach in those rain boots (because it’s always a chilly fall day – no summer in my perfect scenario, sorry), and a nice warm cardigan would be a must!
My Little Hawk 