cookie monster: book edition

I know I always go on and on about how time isn’t really a thing, and you’re not late to anything, and we all live at our own pace, so time cannot escape you, but…

There is one thing.

I think it’s one of those things that, at least for me, has a window you can miss and can’t really catch later on.

It’s about books. Could be about movies, too.

I see posts and content about favorite books growing up, and then people come together to reminisce about their favorite books and memories tied to them.

And it feels like an inside joke I’m not in on.

Books weren’t around when I was little. It wasn’t encouraged, for whatever reason, so the only thing I had was what I wrote myself. I was bored to death!

Anyway, by the time I went to the city for high school, I had already missed a few windows. And then I was overwhelmed with everything I wanted to read, so I really became a bookworm. No, a cookie monster – book edition.

Even now I see beautiful covers of children’s or middle-school books, and they sound so fun, but I’m not the target audience, and I can’t read them!

I mean, I can read them, obviously. I can comprehend them, dammit, but I can’t just pick up any of those books and casually enjoy them now. I mean, I am able to, but you know what I mean!

And I also hate that I have to catch up on so many things now, that literally had no reason to be denied in the first place.


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    1. Yeah, internet and phones for me, for that matter, were something I didn’t grow up with, but also got in high school. I hope you had good time without it and found your entertainment anyway! On the other side of the spectrum, it’s more available and present for kids today, and I don’t think it’s a good thing, either.

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      1. Me too! I hope I’m not misreading the tone, bc I don’t want to sound dismissive, but you’ve reminded me of what we used to play with as kids. Just running outside and idk, using our imagination, making something out of nothing. Maybe this wasn’t the case for other kids around, but you make do with what you have.

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      2. oh good! 😅 sometimes i can’t tell from just writing
        throwing them at a wall or in the distance to see how far we can throw was everything, although my brother did hit my sister once on accident, and it was a… dramatic scene for sure 😅 or kicking rocks down the road on the way to school. i still do that sometimes, absentmindedly, when I’m walking lol

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  1. I love reading children’s books in the reason that it’s easily to be reviewed.🤭 We’re the same. My childhood books are only textbooks. I found my love of reading later in life –in my 20s. Damm*t😁😅

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    1. Oh, for reviews it’s another thing, because I approach it as a reviewer/editor with the audiences in mind 😅
      Yep, passed down textbooks for me! There’s nostalgia in it, tho! At least we found the love for it, or a means to nurture it! 😄

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      1. Yeah, still nurturing. 😅 textbook sounds boring and stressful to me now. Maybe I became lazier this time😁

        Writing reviews considered work to me unlike writing blogs that I feel like just narrating my own story.

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      2. Maybe you just appreciate other means to learn and grow now 😁 Textbooks are the starting point, but they’re not everything.
        True! I agree with you. It’s still enjoyable, but it does look more like work, or something that needs polishing and has deadlines, and doesn’t relate to us alone.

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      3. Yeah, needs to polished truly and it forces my mind😁 now I love writing reviews with no deadline. 🤩

        Exactly! I like discovering new things on other means, not on textbooks. I spend long time for it before. Now, let’s try another.😅

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      4. Exactly, because it’s something we enjoy first, and not just rigid work. 😄
        Life is about learning in many different ways through many different means. Textbooks have done their job 😅

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      5. Yes they’re done 😁 I turn to blogs coz it’s like an online magazine that I enjoyed a lot. Variety of things I’d like to learn. Different voices, too

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  2. This is such a relatable and honest reflection! That feeling of missing out on childhood books and then trying to make up for lost time as an adult is so real. I loved justrojie’s habit of revisiting old favorites. hank you for sharing such a wonderful piece!

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    1. Thank you! Glad you liked it! It was just a thought when seeing so many people reminisce on their childhood favorites, and wanting to relate to that. It feels like belonging and being on the outside of it.
      I liked Rojie’s habit, too! It’s so cool, and must be fun to revisit them with new eyes every time!
      Thank you once again! 😀

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  3. I have this feeling too! It wasn’t about books, but movies, TV shows, manga, video games… basically most things a child my age at the time would have been familiar with. Lately, I’ve been really enjoying some manga from the early 2000s, and I’ve found some really good discussions online that I want to take part in. The problem is that they’re all 15-20 years old, and most of those forums have been basically dead for a long time. Really feels like something I was supposed to cross paths with, but I missed the timeline completely.

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    1. Ugh! I relate to this so much! As you said, wanting to take part in discussions and have a window into that world, but it feels like a missed chance. And yes, we can explore those things now. Like, you can pick up whatever book, movies, manga, whatever, but in the context of relating to others and being a part of a community, it’s in a different timeline, and you can’t really bridge it.

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  4. I recently felt this about Judy Blume books specifically, who another blogger wrote about. I was discouraged from reading these books, which most of the other girls of my age were reading, and wish I’d rebelled!

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